SKINNY WAIST WITH A CHEEK BONE FACE

It doesn't matter how much i weigh i feel fat and i cannot live like this anymore. I have had many half ass atemps at loosing weight, but this time is different. Follow me, i don't bite. Please talk to me and help me. I will help you. We can be skinny together. I'm a lovley person, trying to get a lovley body.

i feel too ashamed to come on here anymore.

i see beautiful girls, skinny and perfect re blogging other beautiful girls, wishing to be them not even realizing they already are. i used to be one of them, apart from not skinny or beautiful. but i had hope i maybe could be one day. then it slipped away from me. slowly no matter how far i put my fingers down my throat, or how many photos i rebloged, i remained scum fat and ugly. when i had hope i felt like i belonged here, like im around people like me, people that would understand me. but i got sick of feeling disgusted with what i see in the mirror and seeing no results so i just got fucked up every second. i poured all the effort i used to put into dieting and exercising into drinking and drugs. i was always a drunk, drug fucked bitch, but i cut down on drinking (which was very hard) to focus on loosing weight, but i just gave up on my size. i just got drunk and drunk and drunk and distracted myself from what i am. it works, up until i get a glimps of myself at a party, or up until i have no more money to spend on sinking myself into oblivion and have to deal with myself. now if i come on here i just feel like a fake. like im trying to pretend that im working towards getting skinny, when really im guzzling down alcoholic calories trying to forget E V E R Y T H I N G. i dont deserve to be beautiful, or skinny. thats all i used to wish for before, to be stick thin and gorgeous. now i just wish i would die. im allone. im ugly. im without hope. and its not coming back, no matter what.

  1. silentannscreams-t-h-i-n said: You’re gorgeous, babe. <3 And I’m sorry. I feel the same way. You may never see this, if you don’t come back, but just know that I adore you. This random faceless tumblr girl adores you.
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